Just noting that all the upset expressed poorly below passed quickly and tomorrow we celebrate #8. Guess we're managing after all....
In many ways I find Beth to be a bit narcissistic. She really doesn't tend to take my tend to take my thoughts and feelings into account fairy world thoughts and feelings into account very well.
She listens to too many details of our distressing timesIncluding NPR and television reports.It all makes her quite anxiousAnd distressed. But she won't stop listening to those sources.
I am now very upsetBecause for at least the second timeHey maybe the third timeSince I found it impossible call my mother,She has asked me if I've talked with my mother lately. Rationally, She must know that if I talk with my mother I would mention that.It troubles meBut she cannot suppress her anxiousFeelingsAbout my motherAm I communicating with her. I'm not sure quite how to express what I feel.I do not feel supported.
It is not useful to meTo think aboutHow difficult it is for me to reach my mother right now.It is doneUseful or supportiveAsk me if I've heard from been able To talk to my mother lately
I just feel like she wants me to be as anxious as she is.
I told her straight outThat I generally have a positive and optimistic outlook.What she's doing in making untoward inquires (forgtting my previous info or waheaver) does not contribute to generally positive frame I try to stay within
It's really very troubling. And, truth be told, I am very bothered almost to the the point of wanting to end the relationship as insufficient for my needs...
It does feel much of the time like it's a one way situation with my meeting her needs and being sensitive to her feelings and such. But not really vice versa.
Happy fucking anniversary.
