My 66th tomorrow. Mixed feelings about a variety of things. For starters, the realization that today is my first birthday without my mother who passed last January. It's a little sad to realize.... She wasn't capable of getting and sending a card the last couple years of her life, or of calling me on her own really for that matter. But those last couple years I'm sure I called her and acknowledged the day with her. Last few times I reminded her that I was her "oldest, smartest, and best looking kid...." which always gave her a laugh.
Second thing on my mind is my wife and her over-sensitivity. Had one of "those" moments yesterday, completely out of the damned blue. Something triggered a memory for her of us having been on a date to BW3, which I didn't particularly recall... upon which she instantly recollected that there was another time there where "you stood me up". Sigh. Upon sleep and reflection I do recall a dinner there. But nothing memorable. But EVERY damned thing is memorable to B because (I think) she's constantly in an emotionally hurting or troubled place inside. They say memories are a combination of event plus emotion. So she has LOTS where me, not being terribly emotional... have many fewer.
I also realize (different subject now) there are regularly instances where I need to be more verbal. In this case it's about bubbly and about intimate times (opportunity for that anyway) that "could happen later. I know with the latter I tend to be reserved as such usually does not pan out.
I guess "it is what it is...."
