Monday, November 20, 2023

Major surgery entered the picture. Ugh

 Well folks, on November 8, 2023 I underwent some major surgery. Always assumed the surgeries in my future were more likely to be related to knee or hip issues. Fortunately not yet. Instead, has a follow up to a hospitalization last June for a severe upper G.I. Hemorrhage, which, according to the gastroenterology doctor, most likely originated from a diverticulum of my esophagus. That turned out to be a large diverticulum.

So, specifically doctors at a university hospital performed some pretty significant surgery on me going in between my seventh and eighth rib. To be specific: TRANSTHORACIC (left thoracotomy) EPIPHRENIC DIVERTICULECTOMY WITH LONG MYOTOMY,  Belsey Fundplication (Left)


In two days it will be two weeks. I've actually mended pretty well considering what was done. I was able to get off of oxycodone about four days after discharge last Tuesday. For the last 2 1/2 days I've been coping with pain slowly using Tylenol. Pretty damn good. being off the opioid means I don't have any restriction on driving or, in the realm of bad habits, are we dram of whiskey, or such. Cannot do beer or any carbonated beverage. Probably not for a months. 

B, my wife was afraid I would be severely laid up and that has not been the case. I have needed very little extra attention or assistance. Kind of amazes me and it certainly amazes her. Although I think she'd like to do more for me, since she was psychologically prepared for that.

So today as I'm getting a little more into the day, I'm finding my main pain point is right on the curve of my left ribs where I presume they pried open as they had to reach the diverticulum and repair it. The incision reaches from the left of my back up to my left shoulder blade. The incision doesn't particularly hurt. Just rib pain as expected.

I really have nothing to complain about other than getting a little bored. I may try to go out later or I may leave any errand for tomorrow. We'll see. Meanwhile it's heating pad time I think.

Wednesday, October 18, 2023

Hurts not to hear from my oldest

 Acknowledging a bit of pain. We lost our oldest son last March just days shy of his 48th birthday. 

Today is my birthday and it is the first where I will not hear from him to wish me Happy Birthday. 

S was always the better of my two boys to remember the date and call. I think he used to remind his brother, D, so then I'd hear from him as well. 

Anyway, it's hurting a touch.... 

Best to acknowledge and feel a feeling and then let it go as best one can....

Sunday, March 5, 2023

a little worried / anxious / mad

 Still stewing about my new PCP office treating my requested referrals as "routine". 

Very anxious to get this high PSA level checked. I imagine it means a "whole round" including the horror of another needle biopsy. Those are not fun. 

very challenging not to show an indication of my worries to B. But until I'm closer to some answer or at least knowing what I'll be chasing here I really don't want her worrying on top of trying to manage her own bad back pain issues. 

Sigh. Probably will try to touch base with my friend Erik - at least talk out loud to someone.

Saturday, March 4, 2023

Oh shit - maybe prostate cancer

 Just had a lousy round of UTI - unusual in a male. Pretty well non-symptomatic now. 

Finally caught up on routine blood tests. I see a few anomalous results that have little meaning to me. BUT... .my damned PSA shows 45 (holy fuck!). 

Last time tested was 2021 - skipped blood tests by and large in 2022 because of the slow loss of my long time PCP - retiring - sold practice - easing out. 

Anyway, in 2021 PSA like 3.1 - normal range. 

Fucking HUGE jump in a year and a half or two. Worrisome. 

Keeping it to myself bcause B has her own painful serious conditions. Will wait for some diagnostic answers. 

Trying to be patient about the pending urology referral. Damned NP wrote it as "routine". Not hardly. 

FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!!!