T: I totally get it about the A2 thing. I think I really pick up on her feelings for you and maybe that's why I felt the need to question if I was wrong in my prediction. I feel very strongly that she feels VERY strongly about you! I know you know this, but I think it's actually stronger than you even realize. Not to complicate your situation or anything!!

BH: well, apparently, as dense as she is about the energetic level, others certainly do seem to pick up on A2's feelings!! Today, in a nondemanding, but totally honest way, A2 did make it clear that she's ready and very much interested in a "significant other" relationship with me. She reviewed the last year together and all the mutual support and learning... how much fun and enjoyment we find together. Etc. And I am very, very tempted. I do care for her a great deal. And I am questioning myself about foregoing the potential based on the possible astrological issues. Yes, I think B and I, esp based on Rosemary's reading, could have a great thing... but, probably not right now....

B has suddenly taken a turn toward withdrawal -- and I'm certain it's because she picks up energetically on A2's feelings.... In fact, A2 had been doing a great deal of thinking and planning and talking about with her cousin and her half-sister about me and how to tell me how she feels and such over the last few days... and I think B picked that up. That, and the fact that in a week, I'll be more in A2's proximity than I have been lately.... and B finds that threatening..... and, if I'm honest, I'm not all that ambivalent toward A2. She seems to be taking me for who I am, as I am.... She's a lovely, loving person.....

I have to confess, I am very much considering letting things go to a more serious point with A2....

B and I have a lot of common interests -- camping and hiking, for instance, that I won't be doing with A2 (but could with TC, as she's got those same interests as well.....) And, on a metaphysical level, Beth has already helped me be even more comfortable with that aspect of the universe..... There's a lot to be gained and learned by a relationship of some sort with her, but with this latest "shying away", I'm leaning hard toward just putting that situation on a friendship basis.....

Irony is, I had been leaning the other way, but this weekend is the latest of several unexpected withdrawal behaviors on B's part.... I'm kind of feeling like it's just not time for that one after all. Maybe later in this lifetime, maybe in another.... But, I'm feeling a bit like I might ought to just put that one on an "occasional keeping of company" basis.... I was trying to convince myself that I should keep Linda on a friendship -- nonsexual basis -- but now, I'm really feeling like there's just WAY too much baggage and doubt inside of Beth for a "preference" toward her to be entirely appropriate at this point.

So, you've sort of touched where I was leaning.... treading lightly.... She is very sensitive, on several levels..... She doesn't know about TC, since that was on the non-contact path while B has been part of my life.... But, I have to say, I'm more comfortable with the idea of dealing with my very good friend who became more, A2, should TC re-surface, than I am by the idea of what might transpire if Beth and I become more involved and then TC comes back into the picture....

I guess my trouble is, I find it too easy almost to love. I could fall in love with B, or with A2, or with TC, or even with you..... and I care deeply about treating women I care for with great grace and kindness......


I think things are still early enough with B to allow for keeping things very light.... and she won't find that terribly hurtful..... OTOH, if we were involved as we could get, and then TC came into it.... B would be greatly, greatly troubled.....

Bottom line is, B, for various reasons is being really hot / cold -- flaky toward me.... I'm not sure I care to jump on such an emotional roller coaster as that....

at this moment, I'm rather inclined to go ahead with the A2 thing and let it play out its course as it will.

hmmmmmm.......