Sunday, November 24, 2024

Truly strange and disquieting

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My long-time past friend with benefits, an awkward reference, who passed on my dad's b-day.....  I'm in the proximity of her Frankli...
Thursday, April 25, 2024

A significant passing; private remembrance

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 A2 passed away a few days back. On my dad's (RIP) birthday of 4/22/2024. She was a significant friend in my life for nearly two years, ...
Saturday, March 23, 2024

A surprise move to be snowbirds

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 Welp, McB has come to have such awful problems with cold weather, I started looking for a senior mobile home community opportunity for next...
Monday, November 20, 2023

Major surgery entered the picture. Ugh

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 Well folks, on November 8, 2023 I underwent some major surgery. Always assumed the surgeries in my future were more likely to be related to...
Wednesday, October 18, 2023

Hurts not to hear from my oldest

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 Acknowledging a bit of pain. We lost our oldest son last March just days shy of his 48th birthday.  Today is my birthday and it is the firs...
Sunday, March 5, 2023

a little worried / anxious / mad

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 Still stewing about my new PCP office treating my requested referrals as "routine".  Very anxious to get this high PSA level chec...
Saturday, March 4, 2023

Oh shit - maybe prostate cancer

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 Just had a lousy round of UTI - unusual in a male. Pretty well non-symptomatic now.  Finally caught up on routine blood tests. I see a few ...
Sunday, October 2, 2022

My own emotional struggle over the last 24 hours

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 Unbeknownst to B last evening I had an episode as I was returning from the neighbors house it was very upsetting emotionally to me. There w...

Insecure feelings suck

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 Last night after a walk I went and talked to the neighbor who moved in a few months back. My age exactly. Fairly attractive but hobbled up ...
Wednesday, June 22, 2022

So easy doubt

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 Couldn't recall if I actually specified in the last entry what happened to jazz me up, in a negative way...  I'm really sorry to al...
Tuesday, June 21, 2022

Oh fuck, she "went there"

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 Goddamn it all to hell.  We are soon (by the end of July) to have new neighbor. A nice lady named Deb....who is, god forbid, MY age, single...
Sunday, June 19, 2022

My own trials and triggers

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 Not to miss a large part of why I'm roiled...  B gets off her center. Quiet. Withdrawn. Perceptably upset even when she thinks not.  Me...

Tree work, wake up!

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 Oh yeah,  Apparently DD is helping her new neighbor to the north (crazy dude) with getting some critical tree work done - issues with an ol...

Mix of things

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 Honestly not sure how coherent last night's post is - it was late and I was venting and getting thoughts out. Of course, the nature of ...

almost too much, have to will it through

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 I see in my post last Fall, allusions to what I find troubling me now at 11:30 pm Saturday night. The mood disorder, particularly (apparent...
Saturday, November 20, 2021

Microexpressions and non-responses

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  Ugh. Contemplating that of late, I'm feeling a bit anxious within the marriage / relationship. Seems like I often have anxiety over th...

NOT mad at YOU, just MAD!

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 Posted to the wrong blog a few weeks back. Dammit.   Stupid little fubar... microwave had overheated. Thinking MAYBE B had left a stove bur...
Sunday, October 17, 2021

Birthday, mixed feelings, relationship(s).... sigh

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 My 66th tomorrow. Mixed feelings about a variety of things. For starters, the realization that today is my first birthday without my mother...
Monday, April 26, 2021

financial conversations spook me a lot!

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 Well this is interesting. I see the last time my blog was almost exactly a year ago corresponded with our anniversary. Which is tomorrow. B...