Honestly not sure how coherent last night's post is - it was late and I was venting and getting thoughts out. Of course, the nature of journaling is that it can me whatever....
Just registered. that I'ved mixed this blog which started with my really crazy Ex - M, with entries for years as well about B. The latter mainly depressive and easily knocked off her emotional center. I also have the other blog that I suppose I meant for all things between B and me. Plenty of entries there. No way, I suppose to move entries from one to the other. Ugh.
Oh well, the fact is I often feel like I'm back in Oz with B. But I have a better handle on my own thoughts and reactions and bases for same.
On to the real bitching and moaning.
So I mentioned the new neighbor, B really should meet. Prospect of friendship right nearby which would do a world of good I think.
But... Thursday when I met her and tried to arrange a friendly drink dinner "on the H deck" B wasn't up to it because she was overwrought by her upset over the email she received from her practice manager about concerns that might result in having to reprocess claims. Don't need to go into a lot about that, other than the PM triggers B.
Friday, I was able to sort out that B HAD sent proper, timely notice of a change in practice location in late February with arrangements to commence billing under that location as of 5/12. So, any screw up is on the PM company.
That wasn't really enough to get B back on center and able to meet a new person. So, couldn't invite DD to go with us Friday evening.
Yesterday, DD knocked on the door about 10AM to say thanks again, with a note as well for the both of us to give her full contact details and again talk about how she's soon to be a neighbor.
B talked with Ann our neighbor briefly - family is next door to DD's new place. Ann described DD as very extroverted and talkative. That made B a little wary since she's an introvert (as am I, but not in this circumstance). "Hope she doesn't turn out to be a pain in the ass". "Who comes unannounced at 10 in the morning an knocks on the door". I just responded that seemed like normal neighbor stuff to me, and that DD is just excited at the place and the welcomes so far.
Pretty good emotional state overall on Saturday until the skidding stop / near collision. That crashed her mood.
We went to the Jazz fest anyway for a couple hours, but again she really wasn't up from that crash, so no progress on meeting.
At this point I'm conceding I can't do much more to help the meet happen. It will just have to be something that happens organically and under B's own efforts and on her terms.
Hope for the best.
I know I'll be able to be friendly and neighborly, but I CANNOT be a friend with DD on a stand alone basis. That would surely be felt as threatening to our relationship, so that's not going to be something I can allow myself to do....
It's either two-way (primarily) with B and D, or that plus 1 (me).
Enough of all this. On to Sunday....
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