Sunday, June 19, 2022

My own trials and triggers

 Not to miss a large part of why I'm roiled... 

B gets off her center. Quiet. Withdrawn. Perceptably upset even when she thinks not. 

Me, being the the codependent, caretaker I am - I search myself for blame, feel unnerved and disquieted until I "fix it" or the matter otherwise passes.... 

At least I understand these days, and have for years, what is going on inside me. Active, cognitive choices that I work through as best I can. 

Summary

PM triggers B; B triggers me; I help fix something, slightly better; something else triggers B; which triggers me; constant circular self examination thought pattern. 

So much fun!! 

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