I have a friend whose wife is in worse shape than M by some -- BPD comorbid with paranoid schiz. Serious breaks with reality this week. Awful situation.
My friendship that had been deepening with a peer from a town about an hour away, appears to have to be backed off on.... she started with some none too subtle verbal signals a couple days ago. I was home late last night, so I didn't call her. I chose not to call her tonight in an attempt to honor her apparent need, as I read it, for some distancing.
And, I spent $60 or so at the strip club and met an extremely beautiful young woman. 27 or 28 y.o. Blend of Spanish and Asian / island features. Great personality. Smart. Interesting..... I actually ended up giving her my contact info with the idea being we might get together some noon hour for coffee.... she's a senior at the University that I work for.... I don't need to get into her pants (I'd like to, though -- she is stunning -- so to say otherwise is a lie).... I'd just enjoy her company.
Oh, and I was supposed to have gone to the house today to take care of some stuff, but M started acting out yesterday / last night and it seemed that I was NOT allowed / or to go out... Didn't get an answer to my phone call or a call back.... So, of course, I'm feeling a little guilty. A little bit concerned about "the price I'll have to pay", and all that.... AND have studiously ignored an impulse to at least run by the house to check on things.... at least from the road.
Stupid, stupid idea -- taking responsibility that isn't mine.... I've managed NOT to do so, though!!
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