rocky

B and I are running in to some rocky times. Just when my son and family (and 9 y.o. grand D ) are to visit. I think we're OK now, but we've had some very harsh and difficult conversations the last few nights.

She's kind of bushwacked me with the subjects and discussions. I think we've dealt with what we must and then, unexpectedly timed and in an unexpected place she'll bring some follow up discussion into the mix.

Last night, she pulled out of me that I've been having some serious concerns about financial balance within this relationship. We kind of resolved a lot of it, but there's still some to figure out (utilities share).

I also was chagrined to find out that the "melt down" (her term) I had over the new bathroom rugs and decorations has stayed with her all this time. Made her realize " I still don't feel emotionally safe in this relationship" and so on. Sigh. And was the predicate for not giving notice to her landlord and moving on in.

She's posed the idea a time or two that "maybe she's just not emotionally healthy enough for me" and "I hate to think, but maybe this relationship has run its course".

I'm still not quite "there", but patience is wearing. I'm not sure just how to deal with the less healthy aspects between us and if we don't, this isn't going to be long term after all.