A new low / high

Seemed like a good enough evening. No problems or conflicts or particular tension, although I thought she seemed to get more distant all through the week.... But, I got tired, while she was still watching a show she likes and I went to bed -- with her knowing, again, that I was "interested" but not pushing it....

Anyway, she sweetly said, "I'll be up in a little while..."

Then, not long after, she called my son in NC.... something she had no business doing, especially at 10:30 at night. I don't know what ensued..... From the VM she left me after, I would have thought it pleasant enough.... But, she's since sent txt about "why does S dislike me so much" and, "what have I ever done....???"

Anyway, midnight last night, I wake up to pee.... hear her weeping downstairs....

SHOULD have left her be.... made the mistake of going down to check on what the matter was (show I care....)

One thing led to another -- she was all conflicted over my family again, and how she "has no standing" and "no respect" (because we are not married).... I got hot tempered.... This subject is SORE, and especially so in the middle of the night.

Conflict of wills. Yelling.... cursing. I packed to go. She threatened that "You can't come back".... etc, etc....

She clawed at me and my clothing -- scratches on my face..... trying to prevent me from going.....

I tried to leave, thought better of it, one more time and came back into the garage where she was blocking the service door into the house -- more willful contesting.

I picked her up by the waist. Move her into the house. She got pushy or something and I grabbed her forearms and continued to move her into the kitchen. Not roughly. But firmly.

Whereupon she accused me of abusing her and CALLED 911.

Deputies were courteous, and professional. I was very cooperative, and they asked me to find elsewhere to sleep. Happy to do so..... went to a hotel, which is where I should have gone in the first place.

Now, the aftermath of her making this false accusation....

I don't know. I have many mixed thoughts. We have a nice vacation planned in 2 weeks.... both been trying hard last couple weeks.... but this.... this changes things really significantly for me.