Saturday, August 4, 2007

Predictable

Entirely predictable that in a short time, things were contentious between us because of the reunion.

I checked the distance and told her that it is a few minutes further than I thought. Closer to 45 min away.... She, in turn said, "Does it ever occur to you that I might be / get tired of being alone? (Left behind?)"

I asked if she wanted to go (because I'd assumed not, due to her soreness....). She said, "No, that's not it. I just get tired of being left alone / behind."

I said, "It sounds like you think I shouldn't go." M, "You'll do what you want to do, it doesn't matter."

Me, "Now, you're pitching guilt...."

"Your comments make me feel like I have to make a choice between being at a family function and being here...."

I'd also, earlier, mentioned that we'd have to figure out whether to go for her recheck before or after I go.... or, that maybe, she'll want to wait until Monday and take herself since she's mending....

Moments more and it was very tight and angry. Not outraged. But angry. Primarily on my part. She, in fact, denied being angry at all. "Only disappointed."

She also turned the comments about perhaps she'll be able to take herself for her recheck into "You basically telling me to take my own sorry ass back to the urgent care myself."

She took herself on upstairs to be away from me.... which is fine. I've checked on her a couple of times, took her an ice pack and some bottled waters.... Keeping to the caretaker role.

But, I'm pretty peeved. And she knows it. Of course, she thinks I'm entirely at fault and in the wrong, too....

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