Welfare check

based on a text message from about 1:10 a.m. and another at 1:40 a.m. that made a strong indication M had overdosed herself, I called the country Sheriff midway through this a.m. when I read the messsages and evaluated their content.

I asked them to do a check on the welfare of a person and gave them the garage door code.

At this point, a couple hours later, I've heard nothing. I do not know if that is good, bad or indifferent.

Starting back toward home now, but will still make a couple stops.

BUT, this is exactly the right opening for me to deal with moving out, as I put her on notice years ago that I would leave her in the event of another suicide attempt.

addendum (8/5/07) it occurs to me to record the main of the text in the messages that moved me to take this step

Aug 2, 2007, 1:07 a
Too bad. So sad. You cannot tolerate speaking to me in any way that remotely resembles a real honest dialogue. You either ignore my calls, turn your phone off - Mr Incommunicado-Man, and when you lower your standards or whatever it is you do, you are almost immediately done talking - rather - listening to me. Can't ever have a dialogue or honest conversation with you. You just check out. After tonight I am checing out. EXPAIN TO MY SONS AS I WAS UNABLE TO REACH EITHER OF THEM. I would really like to know how you'll explain this to my sister and my aunts.....No doubt you won't mention the uber-stress you and your mother has foisted upon me in the past 2 months. No doubt you THINK you can snow Aunt B....good luck. She is pretty sharp, legally wise. You'll not snow her ever.
Never mind all that.
You don't want me around anymore. You want to cater to your mo0ther who intensely dislikes me for ?> I'm sure I don't know. Attitudinal 2 b sure yet you claim u don't know how that could be....Life is... methinks you have really [never meant?] for me to b more than a

Message #2, 1:41 a.m.
passing fuck. Too bad. I'm still just a fuck in passing....who also hyappens to have landscaped and infinitely improved your "Gentlemen's Estate"

I am totally fading now not that that will be of concern 2 you. U and y our mom and the entire S family will rejoice 2 b rid of me, especially mommy dearest.
My regret is that I has unable to get J [son #2] on the phone 2nite. Talke a bit 2 N [son #1] but he said I chose this with L [me] and then had 2 go 2 work. Want them 2 know I love them more than they will ever know. They wre my reason 4 lilving. My reason for not living is you and you excluding me from your family, using me as a servant an dignoring and discounting me to favor your family.
With it was not so, but I'm tired oftrhing 2 swim upstream, always. Nodboy in your family talks 2 me including I am sorry. [then a reference, I think, to the words we had on the deck while mom and dad were not far off in the living room ]
2 DONE 2 FIGHT IT ANYMORE AS I am W/OU [sic]


The tail end of the message seemed to border on gobbledygook, I thought... At least I don't know what the abbrev was intended to mean, if it had a meaning.

What alarmed me most was the obvious suicidal ideation, followed by the "I'm fading now" comments....

Couldn't come home to check on it. Shouldn't have, had I been in town. Always need to call in the police for this from now on.