Monday, April 2, 2012

Head f**ked up at the moment

So.... in the last 24 hours, B has managed to react to my being on my iPod touch when she had gone to the bathroom (and the line was too long)....

and she got her jealous/suspicious attitude going..... all I was doing was occupying myself by hitting FB for a moment in the restaurant.... she, of course, has this knee jerk thought that I might be communicating with some other woman - A2 in particular.... which hacks me off. In fact, when she misheard a name I referenced (Nick) she inferred I was referring to Rick who was a running mate of A2 in a union election, etc.... which simply confirmed what I thought she had going on in her head....

then a few hours ago, while whiling time away with my grand-d, in the context of people (women) who are both beautiful and highly intelligent, I mentioned a recollection of a couple of young lady friends I had made several years ago (not seen now for at least a couple) who were very good looking AND taking double MA, MS, or Doctoral program courses... I don't recall exactly. Anyway, my point was that I have learned to assume little/nothing regarding intellect based on appearances....

But I perceived her negative reaction to my mentioning having had a couple friends, etc, in that way.... It irks me because these were "passing friends" or "hello friends". Literally, I was pleased to interact, come across as other than some dirty old man, and that I was able to occasionally bump into them at the bar or at QD and exchange a pleasant hello.  that's it....

I'm not very happy about her reaction - feeling like there is yet more I need to be careful NOT to express, and to be careful about referencing, etc.... not a way I wish to live.

I'm trying to let it go though, and write it off to her not feeling well.

But still... it's under my skin. 

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