Thursday, June 14, 2007

Last night / this a.m.'s note

After what I had exprssed over the course of the p.m. early evning -- admitting considerable work life pressure and essentially asking for some space to cope -- after she still cycled through much of her same issues, esp w/ my family....

including "being the other woman"

and that marriage would like fix that....

and my refusing to go too far into all that at 10:30 at night.....


she left this note (and I see a suitcase ready to go upstairs):

"this is what I heard you tell me in various ways yesterday-
- Get over my issues regarding your parents' visit for 3 weeks in july and the burden of responsiblity it puts on me [note: a reference to her belief the house has to be utterly clean before my mother steps in to it -- and M is the only one who can do that or do that right] -- never minnd the phsuical and emotional pain I'm enduring right now

--and the only variable [she says in the note] in this is me

-I'm causing you to be unable to do your job, especially because your job is particularly difficult right now

So my conclusion is that if I am not here, your life will be just hunky-dory. I can arrange that because I'm more tired of all of this than you could ever be.

(like Rachel Ray says, see you when I see ya /m

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