I honestly do not remember what M said that seemed to push me into a depressed / morose state of mind. But, there is another possiblity -- that is, I realized I was feeling quite ill by late p.m.. She even asked if I felt OK and commented that I looked pale. Yet, did the emotional pressure let up? No, not much. There was still the angry withdrawn silence.
Later, as from a week or so ago, she stated that, "I was just trying to give you your space...." To which I said, "After yesterday (Fri) I just thought you were being withdrawn." "I am, to stay out of your way and out of trouble....".....
I finally put a movie on and tried to rest. Realizing that the level of stress I've felt over the last several days of conflict probably knocked down my immune response -- and I've been recycling / relapsing with a nasty virus for the last few weeks.... Could also be prostatitis, but I think not. But, could be. That part of life, once the best we had together, has withered as well.
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