Round and round

So, we went round and round this a.m.... nice start to my day.

When she was finally on the phone, she was deep into, "I needed your help LAST night, now I don't....."

Then did the usual plowing of old ground. Aggravated over "NOT being invited to this conference"
(which is contrary to what I feel is the case).

I have explained my "conference" issue over and over, trying to help her understand that it was not rejecting (but still she feels rejected).... AND as far as THIS conference, I thought we HAD resolved it and agreed that the airfare cost was too high....

She kept insisting that I hadn't invited her, so she didn't feel welcome... yadayadayada

The irony is, she probably wouldn't be enjoying this. The weather is colder, sunny, but colder than one wants to have when visiting CA. The hotel is a $20 cab ride to anywhere interesting. She wouldn't be liking it.... Although, I suppose we would have rented a car. Still, she's not nearly as good about entertaining herself and driving about in a strange city as she things she is.

What else...

Oh yeah, it's ME that's too busy, doesn't engage her, doesn't want to be around her, ignores her, on and on and it's ME that's "changed" over the last couple years....

Well, she might be right, but not for the reasons she thinks. I am worn out and weary and I know I need to move onward in life for my own well being.