today's letter(s))

left for me this a.m. by the coffee pot.

Typed:
Is there ev er a time in your life that you would deem an appropriate time to have a civil conversation regarding:

1. Your volatility, inconsistency and anger toward ME (and according to you, I am the only one you treat like this in your life....What have I done to reap such a great honor?)
2. RULES I must live by and abide without error
3. The state of our "relationship" and what WE want the future to be
4. Why I am somtimes a convenience but mostly a huge BURDEN for you, not to mention a major pain in the ass 24/7
5. Why I have put hours and hours and hours into self-help, self-exploration, relationship therapy, personal therapy, and general self and relationship reflection for months and months but you NEVER want to or have time to engage in any constructive conversations
6. Why you are so secretive while I am expected to be an open book to you

Just for starters, I guess I just need to only speak when spoken to -- would that average about a couple of times per week (or quite probably less?)

Like all good, subservient, CHRISTIAN "wives", eh? I thought you had moved past that stage in your life.

There's more, but this is a good start -- at least for you to ponder insdie hyour head. On an odd day, you might even consider taking to N your T about some of these things.


Handwritten P.S.:
Deal with your own chronic pain for more than 18 months and then add CFS and fibromyalgia on top of it and see how much sweetness and light y ou can muster, let alonge take on the sloe task of "fixing" our "relationship". AND biting my tongue constantly so as not to invoke your ever present ire toward me. Try it!!

P.S. Talk to the Dr or not aobut your soring. It has become pervasive AND can be indicative of other more serious health issues. Just a thought --0 NOT TELLING YOU EVER WHAT TO DO. Just a friendly, concerned suggesion.

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I'm truly sorry you find me so objectionable and unpalatable. Sorry.