About time to leave, probably

No chat, even though I'd made a timeframe available....
Probably she is thinking about questions that she
doesn't really want the answer to....

this weekend, while my folks and my g-daughter are
here, she took herself off to a hotel.....
she's just too high strung around a little kid,
etc, etc. yadayadayada.

I've really got the scenario of renting my own place
for the rest of the year getting stronger and stronger
in my psyche... But, it's one of those things that when
I do it, I want to be absolute inside myself that there is
no going back!!

That'll be hard, since we own our home together, and
right now is not the time to sell..... I figure I will have
to buy her out by getting my own first mortgage.....

The other challenge will be that I think, not hope particularly,
just think, that we will still end up having some level
of a semi-friendly relationship AFTER the dust settles....
(also a craft business together to deal with....)

But, I'm absolute in this: once this is over as a "primary
relationship", that's it for that construct. Other relationship
constructs are fine, but if (more likely, when) I leave,
THAT construct is done, done, done.... probably
already beyond done, I'm just stubbornly avoiding
the inevitable, in some ways.

One concern I DO have is the timing. Anytime in the next
while M will associate with my mother -- and mom will
be her major target of blame. But, I've warned
mom to be prepared for that, and mom can
jump right back into her sh** if M dishes it out....

We'll see what we see. /Pop