last night and some of today

"soooo...did she have her "chat" yet??" asked my friend in an email.....

I offered her some time frame in a voicemail, but haven't set the
the time for it yet.

Right now she's a little unhappy(er) with me because my folks
showed up today by 1:00 p.m., sooner than she expected -- because
she had NOT turned on her cell phone to get her messages....

She wondered why I didn't call the land line when their plans
changed.... Hmmm.... could it be when I initially called,
it was early enough I wasn't sure if M was still asleep?
(I know she had another bad night). Could it be I was
BUSY in a morning meeting??!! Which she knew about,
because I give her my calendar.... Hmmm.... I just don't know.

Or, could it be I'm a little gun-shy after more acting out crap
from her last night?? (this is a good one)....

I got home yesterday, late as expected, but sooner than she
was expecting. I greeted her with a hello and a kiss, and with
my usual low-key cordiality. (or careful greeting, maybe).

Anyway, it was not long before she took herself upstairs --
withdrew from me, as I see it -- the an hour or so later,
started projecting the withdrawal and hostility on to me.
( You've been there -- not HER feelings, or HER behaviors --
noooo -- according to her, I was the one being withdrawn
and angry and hostile....) Of course, all I really did was stay
quiet and on my own downstairs and leave her be to
her misery or state of mind.

Another hour or so later, I happened to get up when she
came downstairs, to put my empty wine glass away
and get a drink of water.... Don't know why I felt
compelled to... just did.

Well, she heard the sudden movement.... (according to her)....

Next thing I know, she has my bed pillows, marches into
the living room as says, "Don't you know that when you
jump up suddenly like that when start down the stairs,
I KNOW you are down here jerking off." And she flung
the pillows into my hands (clear implication, there, huh!!)

I corrected her impression, as I had not in fact been so
engaged.... (never mind that the doctor said years
ago that I should have more prostate exercise, and
never mind that her mood state's been so bad for
for long, that lovemaking has been rare for
some time now....)

Anyway, I didn't get angry or rise further to the bait.
Just let her go. And, I slept, fairly comfortably, on
the loveseat last night. Better than the alternative....

Are we having fun, yet??