May be decision time

I've walked up to the line a couple times. I don't know how I can really turn down the opportunity in front of me though. It's been plain for some time that it's done. This relationship can't work out or continue as it is.

I have just been trying quite hard not to be too reactive, too ??? too soon.

But, inside, I know what's what.

I just looked at a relatively roomy 1BR apartment that's FURNISHED!! In the small town 10 minutes away from my house..... Furnished!! For $600 per month. The landlord, a local dentist (kinda odd looking, but nice guy I think) even agreed to a month to month -- provided I pay an extra $200 in my deposit to cover his advertising cost if the place gets vacated again too soon. That's not unreasonable.

The furnishings are OK. Nothing great, nothing awful. Large old sectional. Couple big end tables. Some stuff that doesn't need to be there. I think there was a DR table and chairs, and there is a bed in the bedroom. Lousy mattress.... (wonder if I could get him to let me replace the mattress instead of paying the $200....)

Anyway, this might be it. I don't know why I even have any doubts. I know this is the direction things have to go.

Maybe I should stop fooling myself, stop putting it off, and get on with it. Not such a high cost I can't manage it, even if I have to handle much of the house expenses too....

hmmmmmmmm