Seems like my mind is nearly made up

Here's a message exchange I've had with a friend yesterday/today:

Yeah, I do know the drill...but you have been thinking about this for along time and what happens if the apartment is no longer available when you finally decide "it is time?" I am a firmer believer that when it

That's actually what got me to look in the paper yesterday. The place I had my eye on ended up having been let.

is time to get out things pretty much fall into place. What fear is holding you back from making the decision that you know you must make to be finally get your peace of mind back? Fear of Loneliness..heck you are alone now, even though you aren't. Financially you are able to make it. So take

I have needed to be as certain as I can within that I did all I could (I have).

My other reluctance, I know, is rooted in rescue reactions and co-dependency.
Nothing healthy there!!

Somewhat related to the co-dependence is a pragmatic attempt to make
sure the timing is right within several different cycles. For instance, I didn't
really choose to do this in the winter because of her SAD exacerbating
everything else. This summer, I've hosted my parents, soon leaving....

And we have a craft business together that needs to go into production
in mid-Fall for the Fall / Xmas show season. (not critical that I be involved,
but I suspect once the dust settles and she gets civil and real (IF) that
she'll want me to assist with that.... but it's fine with me if I don't!!

Anyway, bottom line is that a change of living arrangement in August is
probably about the right timing....

a deep long look at what is keeping you stuck from doing what is truly best for you? She can obviously take care of herself. I'm not telling you to go. I'm not telling you to stay. I'm telling you to do what you think is best to take care of yourself the way you need to.

I've been resisting doing what's best for ME, I know that. Again, that
has to change, and the only way to change it is to for one of us
to be elsewhere.


Hmmmm... sure sounds like I'm talking myself clearly toward one direction
here.... /Pop

I'm here for you hun. Let me know what's going on in that head of yours.