Saturday, July 28, 2007

Now she's trying to play nice

I suppose it's because my folks will be gone soon..... She apologized for this week about 3 times last night. I know she's trying to engage me in "relationship discussions", but she still doesn't try to do that when entirely sober. I've told her many times I won't do those discussions unless we are both absolutely sober and sober-minded.

She's identified the "trigger" from her perspective. Monday I came home from work and "had an attitude and were totally withdrawn...."

"You know I always react badly when you withdraw"

I again explained that the biggest part of what was going on was that I was not feeling well. Felt quite ill, as I recall. That just resulted in a diatribe about "How tired I am about hearing about you feeling lousy, having a virus or whatever. Go to the damn doctor."

I wanted to respond that Monday, regardless, (and esp once she knew I hadn't felt well) was hardly an excuse for 4 nights of acting out.

Anyway, even though she was drinking, she stayed civil last night. I think she kind of wanted to move toward more friendly terms, but I definitely was a little standoffish about that.

About dusk, she wondered about lighting a fire in the firepit. We did. Spent a pleasant hour or so out there. I finally got sleepy... and I was trying to get away before anything unpleasant arose..... So, I politely took myself off to bed by 10:30 or so.

She didn't disturb me to mention, so I got the first good night's sleep of this week.

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